On our adoption journey I have been getting the same message over and over, Stop with self-reliance and trust HIM. Has it been easy? Oh far, far from it, so I being the type A personality that I am, always pick it back up and try it again. Well God, just keep letting me get knocked down, over and over, until I had to rely completely on him and lean not on my own understanding. Sometimes, I know it would be so much easier to just stop picking it up and rely on him, but that is just not me. Once I have turned it all over on him and not know where to go, what to do, how it was going to be done, but said “Ok God, I know you have this” Then and only then did I see him move on our behalf.
This week was one year my sweet dear nephew Isaac passed away. What a life he led, a legacy he left behind, a child who never spoke one word, but changed many lives. Our hearts hurt so much missing him and long to hold and kiss him, but we also know he now has his complete healing and is whole and in Jesus’ arms. You see, one of the things he did was open the door for Rich and I to even consider a special needs adoption. We saw what it entailed when Isaac was born, it didn’t scare us, or make us weary. We knew what love Isaac has brought to our family, the smiles, trials, and joys he was. That is when we knew Hey we can do this! He opened the door for Isabella to have a family, not to live her life out in a cold dark, dreary orphanage with no one to hold her. God had a plan, a purpose and divine appointment for us to meet Isabella and make her our daughter.
Now here we are, on our way to bring home Tucker (not his name by the way), a child with a heart defect. If anyone who knows me, was kind of shocked I was willing to take a child with a heart defect. But God lead us to Tucker and he will be our son no matter what the future holds. We think that his heart defect is not to severe, but there is no way of knowing until we get him home and have him checked out by a cardiologist. What ever it may be, we are prepared as a family to love him, and help him live the best healthy life he possibly can. You see, when God formed Isabella and Tucker in their mother’s womb, he did not intend for them to be left alone with no family, no hope and no future, he intended them to have a family. When we saw the need of these two children we answered a call, and said YES, we will be the family for this child and we will love them just as you have loved us. See we adopt not to be the rescuers, we help the orphans because WE are the ones who were rescued !
We are still $5,500 short and we need those funds in our account a week before we leave so we can have it when we travel. Please pray for us, share our need with family, friends and anyone you can! You never know who hear our need and can help us. We need your help, and so does one little boy half way around the world sitting there wondering where is my mommy? As he watches children leave with other families. Thank you for your support in our journey! God is GOOD ALL THE TIME!